A former colleague of mine who is probably on the far side of 60 once encouraged me to blog by saying "Everyone has an interesting story to tell." Easy for him, I used to think. His idea of a relaxing weekend is cycling down some treacherous slope, some place in Europe with an unpronounceable name. Me, I was the PR manager for a large, conventional conglomerate, with a vague sense of dissatisfaction, and a 20 year old son who seemed destined never to get on the beaten path. Hardly a recipe for a riveting blog.
Then two years ago my life changed dramatically. The son was murdered, an event which precipitated what I can only describe as a spiritual awakening, and which has challenged many of my personal assumptions about life. Since then I have been opening to amazing messages from the Universe that have changed my life and continue to open up new paths.
Even then, I believe this transformation might have remained an individual and private journey. However, two months ago when I finally yielded to the urgings of Spirit to quit a great job, and great boss, to make myself available for something yet unspecified, I began to suspect that maybe this was a journey I should document. When I decided to devote this newly found free time to developing a programme for grieving children in Jamaica...and to spring my toddler grandson from pre-school to provide him with more 'enriching' experiences, I definitely understood that I would need to document the pains and joys of this journey into life. Actually, I thought, 'Hell, I'm going to need some serious moral support!'
The title of my blog, 'The Heart Believes the Truth' is actually taken from a guided journal that I received as a Christmas gift from my mentor in grief support, in 2000. Besides encouraging my first step in journalling, it has provided a metaphor for my opening up to the truths that I realise I have always known, about the need to find the purpose for which I volunteered to be born.
I hope that by journalling in a more public way, I may be of use to other homicide survivors, especially parents grieving the loss of a child. I also believe that spiritually awakened persons are being called to be of service to the planet in our own individual way and a part of this involves coming out of the closet spiritually. So, in effect, this blog represents my own coming out, so here goes...
I look forward to sharing this wild and scary ride.
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